Nandithayude Kavithakal


” My Mask too fine and serene,

My smile ugly, words worthless

The mask is torn to pieces

Still I wear a self conscious laugh….”

These lines are still reverberating in my ears. I know that my words are not enough powerful to write about Nandhitha. Her serene soul thirsted for something that she had missed in her journey of life. She left the world because she never wanted to wear the mask. The lines in the poems were fresh and pure as it was not written for the public. The dreams, hopes and the feeling of loss melted into her pen and something still remains strange. She was adored by her parents her brother and the people around her but the intensity of love was beyond everything, that brutally taken away her mind. I was surprised by these poems and more by the poet. She might have been truthful to her life but she got married. Without doubt Nanditha and her poems will be remembered in the hearts of all those who values their lives.

Nanditha was born in 1969 May 12th at Vayanadu district Kerala. She had been a teacher in Vayanadu Muttil Muslim Orphanage Arts and Science College. In 1999 January 17th she committed suicide.

44 Responses to “Nandithayude Kavithakal”

  1. asvati says:

    like to read her poems…can u send it

  2. admin says:

    Please try to buy the book..

  3. bineesh says:

    feel that she lost something in life………………….poems which cannot say in words……..only poem can….

  4. Deepa says:

    Her poems are her lost memories………… i think….
    anyway it is very nice to read n think abt tht

  5. SHEEJITH PAYYARATTA says:

    Hi,

    Good.

  6. PREETHIKUMAR.G.S says:

    I LOVE THE POEMS

  7. sindhu says:

    what a fantastic words.
    NANDITHA…………NINTE CHERUTHUNILPU JALAREKHAYAYI…….EE KAPADALOKATHINU MUNNIL ENTHE NEE NISAHAYAYAYI NINNUPOYATHU………….
    SO I LIKE UUUUUU..

  8. Arun says:

    hey anybody can assist me to procure the book nandithayude kavithakal…or nyby an sent it

  9. chinchu says:

    vakkukal poora paranjeeduvan……………..

  10. vinodini says:

    ormakalil nanditha enu jeevikkum…………..pranayam oru kathirippanu…………..nedumbol branthamakunnu

  11. thankam says:

    i came to know about nanditha from my sir. she was his friend. i saw tears in his eyes while talking about her which made me to search about her

  12. anamika says:

    It is her Soul… Pure and the intensity of feelings…

  13. dhef1 says:

    i love nandhitha u r words is very fantastic

  14. subhash says:

    its silence
    its peace
    even the sound suffice.
    music in air
    music in mind, music in eyes……..

  15. jithin menon says:

    goooooooooooood

  16. orama says:

    oru padu vedhana undu kootukari…..ingane oru theerumanam aduthathil……

  17. Sahyan.k.s says:

    Oh dove,loving your poems with a pain

  18. prasanth says:

    “wow”…read her recently…wondered, how can she be so cruel!!?and now i say….if u dont care…we (like minded) dont care…it is absolute paranoia….may be she was emulating emtee’s heroine of the movie “uttaram”

  19. remya t p says:

    really heart touching lines.blessed girl.

  20. prasanth says:

    imagined where she would have been if alive and with such a talent……”oh god-it was such a lovely miscreation from u……”

  21. unnikuttan says:

    she loved death more than his lover….like sylvia plath she was in severe depression which may be present aS A static feeling in all pure hearts…

  22. Nichu says:

    What i say? poems from the soul

  23. jumi says:

    iread her poems when it came a report in malayala manorama.what will i say?i’m a dead fan of her.when i read her poems again & again I feel i lost myself.

  24. sharlet says:

    i have seen her through my life,still im seing,and i noticed that some poems written by me is that closely related to her words,no i cant say that,she was a legent,realy i respect or love her,more than her poems

  25. leena says:

    nandita i can feel your pain from your poem………really you are a blessed poetess

  26. SHARLET says:

    NANDHITHA I REALY RESPECT YOU,I HAVE SEEN YOU THOUGH MY LIFE,AND ITS REALY YOUR WINNING THROUGH YOUR DEATH,AND SOME TIMES I FEEL THAT MY WORDS AND MY FEELINGS ARE REALLY=CLOSE TO YOUR’S

  27. MD says:

    oro varikkalum njan enne kanunnu …..

  28. neha says:

    fantastic

  29. ajith vijayan says:

    really marvelous……al her poems contain real pain…….

  30. ajith vijayan says:

    marvellous..all her poems contain a lot of pain in it……….

  31. ajith vijayan says:

    y did she commit suicide………

  32. Nichu says:

    “Hriyathin nombaramenganea kanneeril chalichu
    Thalukalil pakartham”. Ur Poems are the example for that

  33. Jyothis ravindran says:

    enne uranganan anuvathikkuuu….
    Swapnangalil ente amma undu……

  34. richsee says:

    hey, accidently i came to this site and i was moved by her lines. franatically i searced the entire net for taking some biographicl data about her. but tnothing is available. can anybody who knows her do attempt to create her on wikipedia so that the world knows her…..
    would be grateful if someone could acquantise me to her past. i mean she married, any kids, where is her husband and wha t about her parents and her works …..

  35. ajith vijayan says:

    hi richsee,
    nanditha committed suicide at the age of 30..she was workin in an orphanage school,in wayanad,kerala..she had a lot of pain in her life..probably had an unsuccessful lov..i think shes unmarried..sry if im wrng abt latter ..

  36. richsee says:

    thanks ajith!
    but i think someone cited her to be married.

  37. nabeela says:

    Her poems….really touching words!!…..but i feel nanditha did a foolish thing dat destroyed her soul forever….nobody has thy right to do suicide as our soul is a gift that should be treasured….imagination is in infinity after death…..v cant think of ourself burning in the mouth of fire…..now cud she do this with such a gr8 imaginative power???!!!…………

  38. JOY THOMAS says:

    I have a requist 2 all lovers for reading this book….i read it! & felt It! , the feeling behind was extra ordinary! After reading this book pls try 2 write poems , it surely gives some potential from ur heart! Thanks!

  39. MUTH says:

    i wanna know more about nanditha…..
    plz……

  40. MUTH says:

    i wanna know more about nanditha…..
    plz……
    “nandithayil njan enne thanne kanunnu….”

  41. ajith vijayan says:

    for those all hu see demselves in nanditha……u al il av soul in ur words…

  42. Nimish says:

    misterious was her life…..
    her mind was always disturbed with thoughts (which is reflected in her poems)
    when she left this world… she made it more misterious…

    (Like to know more about Nanditha if possible)

  43. Aravind says:

    So much pain hiding between her words. The question on how a person feels when he/she tries to end thier lives is unanswerable. Maybe she felt some invisible chains tying her, gagging and choking her…could be the society. 25-30 being the period of quarter-life crisis, she must have gone tired deciding whether to go her way or follow the tide….or maybe the insecurity or fear from the scars of her past …


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